I said I love you. Then I panicked. Do I really? What expectations are attached to their definitions of love? Am I willing to rise to the divine definition of what love is? Am I able to stand strong in His love in me for them, while they shed their assumptions of what love is…and may not be?
I’m deliberately stripping away all pretense or “heaviness” from this project. As viewed from our set here today in the car wash. What—you don’t selfie video in the carwash?…
Fifteen minutes with Aly is fifteen minutes well spent.
Vulnerability is tough. But it’s also where every genuine expression of relationship and intimacy are hidden. Turns out, I still have a lot of contempt in my life…
So in the name of being honest, this is the only video I got recorded today. I got interrupted and didn’t really like what I was saying so I just stopped–but never went back to it. So you may just want to skip today. I am posting in name only, both in transparency and genuine weakness. It is what it is.
I originally recorded this one under an inspiration to post it on Facebook, but then, that impulse soured. Right or wrong, I’m putting it here in the insecure hope I’m not essentially hiding the light in my heart in an obscure place. If it only blesses you, it will be well worth it. All the blessings of my heart to you today, in every detail of your life.
Note: Our family will be camping over Labor Day weekend, beginning tomorrow—so it’s likely I’ll be limited on my ability to post my videos during that time. Often, internet at campgrounds is sketchy or slow. If that’s the case, I’ll find a way to post when I get home.
The standard of excellence seems like a punishing performance or an impossible expectation when we have the mentality that we have been abandoned to perform its requirements. We resent excellent standards under those conditions. But the standard, and the journey towards it, require presence and fellowship. Jesus can call us to perfection–a seemingly impossible standard–because he never leaves us. He rightly discerns our hearts, and the motives and substance within it. He compounds love and grace and discipline towards us. Excellence is possible when presence is consistent.